Terrified - Katharine McPhee ft. Zachary Levi (:

This is a beautiful beautiful song.

One of the lines that especially caught my attention is:-
"In a world full of wrong, you're the only thing that's right.."

You can definitely imagine what's my expression when I listen to this line. Haha

So, just click on the triangle-in-a-box icon, listen to it, and cry watching the video.

You might not cry, but i almost did.

P/S : Zachary Levi can actually sing! And that had just increased my teeny weeny celebrity crush for him into a big one.

P/P/S: The BIGGEST of all celebrity crush that I'm having so far is still Mark Salling, and Harry Shum Jr. (Sorry, I can't decide which one. Haha)

sad sad, how?

when you feel sad sad, tell Papa who navere ever forsakes you.
when you wanna cry, cry to Him who always comforts you.
when you break up with someone, tell Him for He loves you much, much more than him/her.

He sayang you, like any father would to his children.

He sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang you.

My Jesus sayang me.

and I love you too.. (:

♥ me mama birthday (2010) ♥

Alala.... I'm feeling so esctatic right now! It's actually my Mom's birthday and I'm sooo happy. I wasn't even THIS happy on my birthday.. I'm just, SO HAPPY that it's her bithday today!

Okay, enough of all those crappy stuff, I'm gonna make a big shoutout here.

MOMMY!! I KNOW I DON'T ALLOW YOU TO READ MY BLOG UNLESS I LET YOU, SO YOU WON'T BE SEEING THIS WISH, BUT I JUST WANNA WISH YOU HAAAAAAAAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING MOMMY!! Wheeee~~ ♥

♥ Really. I love her sooo much. As some of my friends know, I sometimes have "cold war" with her, we sometimes have arguments, we even have tantrums over each other, but I clearly know that it's some kind of love language between us that no one can ever fathom.

♥ And you know what? Besides being my biological mother, she's my spiritual mama as well. :) She's really so strong you know? She's like praying all the time, ever so ceasingly, for me and my brother especially (until sometimes I also tak tahan). Haha.. But she understands.. That makes me love her more.. Haha.. (my love sounds so conditional.) xD

♥ She's also a perfect example of a woman to me. Not exactly ladylike, but she does what a woman ought to do. She loves he husband (that is my Dad, obviously) so much. Well, actually they are still DEEPLY in love with each other, pretty much still growing in love. Haha.. She's an awesome cook, which explains of my fatness. Hahah.. She's also a great shoulder to lean on. She's also a best HUMAN friend (my bestest friend is Jesus, just in case you don't know) that I could ever have. She listens, cries together, laugh together and plays together.

♥ She's mightily indescribable. Really. She loves simplicity. When she love one makan place, she hardly try anything else. Unless keadaan tidak membenarkan. Haha. She's really good at making powerpoints, video editting and stuff, but never good at social networking. She say that she's a typical introvert, but when she goes out, she talks to anyone as is they had been good friends since ages ago.

♥ She had been my mentor and buddy all these years. She teaches my anything, from cooking to spiritual things. She, although scolds me sometimes, loves me. That's the most inportant thing. She don't have to say that often, but everything she does shows her love and affection for us. She can sacrifice everything for a puny, tiny person (not physically though) like me.

IN CONCLUSION, I LOVE MY MAMA.
AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO.
I MAYBE A BAD, BAD GIRL SOMETIMES,
BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.
DEEP DOWN.
INSIDE.
♥

Lastly, I repeat again. Happy birthday. And I love you. :)

fear not, fret not

for He is with you. Every moment.
for He is in you. Every breath you take.

i'm a happy girl.

Name: Joyce Ang Sze Jie
Age: 16
Birthday: 09 October 1994

I have a God as a Father, a best friend, a counselor, a Saviour, a lover and EVERYTHING ELSE.

I have His love letters for me. For anytime of the day, of my life.

What else can I ask for?

Nothing.

Yes.

Nothing.

Thank You Jesus for Your love for me.

I AM INDEED A HAPPY GIRL!! :D

FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD IS STRONG.

you dare?

My Daddy is so BIG! So STRONG and so MIGHTY!
There's nothing that He cannot do! :D

That's the reason why I'm asking you now.
You dare to bully me? My Daddy (that is God, naturally) is ALWAYS there for me. ALL THE TIME! :D
Thank You Daddy.

You dare now?

*laughs*

20102010

Just dropping by to post something here. Wanted to post on 101010 but lo, I missed the 100-year-chance. As a matter of fact, I did not even on the computer. -__-

Lame right?

And guess what?

It's 20th October 2010, which makes up 20102010! Whee~

Thanks for even reading this (if there is actually anyone reading).

And congratulations. Because you have just wasted precious time.

just like children.

Dear readers (i hope there are),

I'm so sorry for not updating this humble bloggie of mine. I am utterly upset that I am not able to blog on my birthday (that is 9th Oct) and the special 10.10.10. Those are important dates to mean and i can't blog. Anyways, I can't blog because I have things that are WAY more important than blogging to do, and there are many reasons behind them, which I would not like to list them down because it will cause waste of precious space.

Yours truly,

Joyce

Okay. I know the above (err.. what should I call it? err..) NOTE is kindda lame, and unmistakably CHILDISH, but that's the whole point of this post, becoming like a kid, relive childhood for sometime.

Well, what actually brought me to this topis is something that happened in school today, which was just simply fun, fun, FUN!! Seriously, though there were funny/awesome/great things that had happened throughout this year (Form 4) so far, but never had there been something that was so fun. Playfully fun. Kiddishly fun. Awesomely fun.

Enough with the intro, I shall just get into my story. Today started like ANY other day. Perhimpunan, then class (tries to keep quiet but failed badly at it), then (err... *laughs awkwardly) ponteng, then recess, as usual we makan-ed, chatted, jalan-jalan-ed, then had an inofficial gathering in front of the oh-so-small koperasi eating ice cream, BM period at the library, slept in between the book racks under the fan blowing right at me, went back, and there was the cool breeze. "Oh no," I thought, "how am I ever going to walk back in this weather? Oh God, please don't let it rain..." Then we started our way back to class. And this special day, we had (besides BM, of course) we had relief period all the way until the school ends, so we just chatted and laughed while the moniter tried to control our volumes. Haha. Before long, it started to rain. I randomly walked out to the balcony corridor (my classroom is on the first floor of the block, facing the field), looked at the rain and was asking if someone had brought a phone. Then, a crazy girl (Haha..) splashed some rain water on me. And after that everything started.

I started splashing her back, and she ran back into her classroom, which is next to mine, and some other dudes join in. And me, whose "hyper mode button" was accidentally turned on, filled my cupped hands with rain water and splash them on a dude's back. Which causes more "chaos". Soon enough, almost the whole upstairs of form 4 students, or specifically 16-year-olds were playing rain water like children. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention this. The guys actually took their bottles (minimum 500 ml, maximum 1.5 litre) and filled them with rain water to the brim, and poured/splashed on each other. We bodies were literally totally wet. Really. Our school uniforms are soaking with water. Dripping like crazy. Haha. And that was fun. Sheer FUN!! Haha.

This whole thing lasted for i'm-not-sure-how-long, maybe around 30 - 45 minutes, until the teacher next class came out to the corridor and we quickly went into classrooms. RANDOM classroom but the teacher's. Haha. It had been a long, long time since I had fun with them, and that was really good, just like when we were form 2. Happy days, I call them. Really.

Aren't playing like children happy? Don't we just enjoy ourselves when we stay pure hearted and not think so much about being ugly, not being so self-conscious? Well, I do. I am happy. I, in fact, feel younger. I feel not so stressed. I do not feel the suppressed.

Matthew 18:1-5 9 (New King James Version)

1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?"

2 Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them,

3 and said, "Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven."

4 "Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."

5 "Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me."

Well, when Jesus said that "become as little children", it doesn't mean that we are to act stupid like a kid, but rather as a kid trust his father. So we are the kid, and God be the Father.

John 1:12

But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name.

Isn't it wonderful? As long as we believe in Him, He gave us the right to become His children! What would be better than becoming God's beloved child? Pamped by Him, loved by Him, blessed by Him, and so many more! And the best thing is, He wants to give us the best of everything and give us to the fullest. Just like any daddy would do to his children. He provides them EVERYTHING. ALL. Not a thing less, even their so called "own money" is provided by the dad. If an earthly dad would give his children this much, how much more would our HEAVENLY CREATOR FATHER GOD give us? Immeasurable right? Totally.

So let's be like children, pure hearted. And did you ever realise that every children has a kind of special glow in their faces? That's what God wants to give us. You know why? I think la.. Because we look good with it. Hahaha..

Before ending this post, I give you these verses that I just found. Actually I wanna type it earlier one, but I cannot find. Haha.

Luke 18:16-17

16 But Jesus calle dthem to Him and said, "Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for such is the the kingdom of God.

17 "Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it."

How great is our God. Amen? :)

the wonders of Your love.

The Wonder of Your Love by Hillsongs. Nice song a friend recomemded. :)

For the video, click here >> The Wonder of Your Love


You inhabit the praises of Your people
You delight in the glory of Your Son
In the love of the Father we will worship
In the kingdom of God we find home

The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship

Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God

The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship

Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God

Together we will lift the name of Jesus
Together we'll sing of Your great love
We will join with the angels to praise You
May our voices be pleasing to You God


The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship


Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God

do not worry.

Worrying has become a norm for everyone, no matter how young or how old you are.
Let me give examples of worrying for different age groups:-

Kids: I better keep my toy at a safe place, just in case so-and-so come and steal it.

Teenagers (students): Oh my goshh. Exam is so freaking near already. I'm so worried la... Later if the results come out bad, I'm so screwed.

Adults (single): STRESS STRESS STRESS!! Tomorrow's the audit and I'm not done with this report yet.. I'm so worried.

Adults (with children): I'm so worried for my children, I've done everything I can and their behaviour and everything is still so teruk.

Elderly: Why am I having pain here? Oh no.. Is this some kind sickness?

Don't we have a kind of sick feeling inside when we worry? When we worry, we just don't have a peace of mind, which can lead to so many other things like get angry really easily, headache, lose focus on things, et cetera. This is a fact.

BUT, the truth is...
we can choose not to be like that!
I did not say that. Jesus did. Let's take a look a passage in the Bible:

Matthew 6:25-34

Do not worry
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or stire away in barns, and yet you heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If this is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I always love this passage, it assures so much! Don't you think so? I love the part where it says that "not even SOLOMON in ALL HIS SPLENDOUR was dresses like one of these (referring to the lillies)". As we all know, Solomon is the richest person that had ever walked Earth's surface. So can you imagine how luxurious he dress and live? But "will He not much more clothe you", God clothes us more than Solomon did in all his spendour. Much much more. And did you notice how the sparrows are always eating, always pecking on the ground? It might be a kosong ground, but somehow they are still eating! Where did the food come from? Look at verse 26. God provide them food! And Jesus asked us, ARE WE NOT MUCH MORE VALUABLE THAN THEY? We worth much more than birds. C'mon people, we are valuable in His eyes. He provides us food, drink, clothes, everything that we need. OUR HEAVENLY FATHER KNOWS THAT WE NEED THEM! (v32) That's why Jesus told us to not worry. Not even think, not even ask. He will give us. He provides. He is our Jehovah Jireh, our Provider. How wonderful is His love for us.

Thank You, heavenly Father.
Thank You, Jesus.
For this assurance.

okay. is this boredom?

I was planning to, you know, pack up this holiday with all sorts of fun, fuN, FUN activities like playing badminton till my arm, more specifically, my right arm dislocate, go yumcha with my darlings, or at least my friends (there ARE differences between "darlings" and "friends"), practice piano until my hands break apart, well, if not that serious, until my fingers fall off (it's still quite serious after all. Haha), go to the beach with, again, my darlings or my friends, or maybe go work to earn some of those ka-chings / big letter S with two poles vertically over it, revise my guitar and many, many more. But one thing that I don't wanna do is to sit down here in front of the thing that can be opened and closed like a laptop, that is, a laptop. I know this is lame, but it's kind of boring here. Sadly.

And I tell you what, I actually have lots of backlog homeworks. But too bad, I don't even want to think about them. Can you imagine spending the whole 2 weeks (well, not exactly) of holidays in homeworks? That is crazy. Only nerds do that. And I'm a geek. A COOL GEEK. Lol. What's up with self praising these days? Haha. Anyways, I'm still not gonna ignore Ms. Tan's homework, because if I don't do that, I am going to fail my physics and chemistry. Which is exactly what has happened to my Addmaths. Oh God, save my Addmaths!! Okay, and try to imagine doing those B.M. homeworks. It's not that I strongly dislike B.M., it's just that the teacher is, you know, unspeakable of. Let's skip this part.

And the whole reason of my failure in making my yumcha/badminton/hanging out dream a reality is :-
Number one, It's the holidays, and of course people travel to for instance, K.L.
Number two, It's the holidays, and adults are still working, hence we lack transport.
Number three, It the Raya holidays, and some people are at highway duty. Which contributes in the lack-of-people section.
Number four, It's the SPM trials right after the holidays, so even those who can drive are trying to study.
Number five, (Please refer to Number four) because these people are trying to study, I do not want to disturb them, so as to not causing them bad results.
Number six, Some adults (please excuse the pun) said that holidays are the time to catch up with what we students have fallen behind, in other words, is doing homeworks. *rolls eyes*
Number seven, Some people just don't want to go lepak-ing!!!
Conclusion, I am awfully sad. :(

And as I had said in the previous post, I am trying to media fast. And I actually had make the scope smaller to only fasting from Facebook. And as I am typing right now, I have my Facebook page open. OH NO. I NEED SOME HELP HERE!!

Let's stop with the emo-ness.

And let me tell you a good, good news.

I FINALLY OWN A DSLR CAMERA!!! Wheeeee~ And I can actually explore this camera during the holidays. Thank You Jesus for the camera. Thank you Daddy for the camera. I love both of you!! But too bad, I love Jesus more :) Haha.

So I'm just gonna stop here. And am I actually bored? It's a "yes" and a "no". It's just how I choose to fill up my holidays with. I don't want it to pass me by with me thinking, "What had I done?" but instead, I want it to be over, leaving me feeling afresh, renewed, and with me saying, "Thank You Jesus for this wonderfully awesome holiday. Thank You for filling it up to its brim. Thank You Jesus for all you had done for me. Thank You Jesus for your blessings. Thank You Jesus for Your love for me." :)

idk.

I don't know what is wrong with me. Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me. Neither do I know what has happened to me. I get angry easily. I get frustrated easily. I cry easily. I shout at people easily. I lose my temper easily.I act like a baby. I get disappointed easily. I disappoint people often. I get lethargic easily, in fact most of the time. I throw things against the wall and see them crash into the floor. I always shout into my pillow. I tear paper. I always crash thing. I skip classes. I curse. I do terrible things. I fight back. I rebel. I don't know why I do things like that.

Maybe she is right. I am a burden. I should get out of their perfect little lives. I should dig a hole and bury myself in it. I should shut up and shoot myself. I should DIE. They won't even shed a tear for me, I think. Since they loathe me so much.

SINCE WHEN HAVE I BECOME THIS TERRIBLE? THIS LOUSY? AM I EVEN A PERSON STILL? A HOMOSAPIEN? AM I?

I don't know why. I don't know when. I don't know. Really, I don't know. Truly, I don't know. I know not what am I doing. Father, forgive me and help me. Help me from this pit of lousiness. Really. If I am that lousy, take me away. Remove me. Delete me. Delete me from the recycle bin. And see me and anything to do with me no more. And be happy.

I don't know why am I even typing this post.
I don't know.
I DON'T KNOW.

it's the hols again!

Whee! Here comes the holidays again! teehee~ xD

And let me tell you a secret. I failed the first week of the media fast. Oh Lord, forgive me. For I know not what am I doing. Lol. I'm feeling really, really bad. As in ohmygosh-can't-I-do-it kind of bad, as well as ohmygosh-I-know-I-shouldn't kind of bad and also ohmygosh-I-am-so-sinful kind of bad. Actually I did something else as well, but I do not want to elaborate on it. Do not even ask me to. I feel dirty even thinking of it. *shudders*

Okay. So it's the holidays and I am trying to media fast. OHMYGOSH!! LORD, HAVE THY MERCY ON ME!!! It's hard to resist the computer (especially facebook) when it has already become a lifestyle, a habit. Thank God that He is with me throughout and thank God that tI have a blog ad thank God that I can write my feelings in it. As a conclusion, thank God for computers. Ohmygosh. I have to detach myself from computer before it consumes me. Literally consume me. Eat me up. From my brain. Tear me away from God. Crush my studies. Then my life. In the end, I'm gonna DIE. Yes, I do know that. Argh, but it's like drug. Once you have an overdose of it, you're hooked.

LESSON FROM THE ABOVE PASSAGE: TURN TO GOD ANYTIME, FOR WHATEVER PURPOSE IT IS.

Okay. Let's put that topic aside. It's a depressing fact and doesn't match the happy occasion AT ALL. So, in order for me to forget the computer (there I go again, urgh. See my attachment to the computer?), I am going to occupy myself with any other things that are going to keep me away from the computer (see? SEE??). So, I'm planning to play badminton as much as possible (keep me away from home, as well as seeing the computer), practice lots and lots of piano, study addmaths, chemistry, biology, sejarah, finish theory homework, and the list goes on. You can't expect me to type out the entire list here right? Because if I do, it's gonna go KABOOM! and of course, TALK TO GOD EVERYDAY like i used to (sadly) . Oh yeah, and sing my heart out that is. Haha. :D

And you know what? I'm gonna try to prevent myself from gossiping. I'm also gonna be trying to not think so much about relationships/crushes/anything-to-do-with-stuff-like-that, because before I promised myself that I'm gonna truly fall deeply in love with God first before getting into a relationship. And just for you to know, I know I can't possibly make them come true all by myself, my own strength, but Phillipians 3:14 says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". So, it's gonna come true I'm sure. :) Thank you Jesus for you love for me.

That's my holiday resolution. I don't go for new yer resolutions.
I aim for short term goals that leads to long term goals.
Get what I mean?

To all my dear Muslim friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!
To my other friends, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

God bless all of you.
The above statement when paraphrased will be, may God be with you.

And always remember to smile!! And also JESUS!! :)

hari kemerdekaan. independence day. 国家独立日. ♥

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan.
Happy Independence Day.

国庆日快乐。

Adakah kita betul-betul merdeka?

Are we truly independent/set free?

我们真的独立了吗？

Tidak. Saya tidak berasa demikian.

No. I don't think so.

不。我并不这么觉得。

Marilah kita berganding bahu dan berdoa bersama-sama untuk tanah air tercinta ini.

Let's join hands and together we pray for our beloved country.

让我们同心协力，以期为我们心爱的祖国祷告。

Hal ini kerana Yesus ialah Tuhan Malaysia.

This is because Jesus is Malaysia's God.

这是因为主耶稣是马来西亚的上帝。

Dan Yesus cinta akan Malaysia.

And Jesus loves Malaysia.

主耶稣爱马来西亚。

Doa, merupakan perkara yang penting sekarang ini.

Prayer, is something really important these days.

祷告，是一件重要的东西。

Justeru, untuk mengharapkan sesuatu yang baik untuk berlaku, kita hendaklah berdoa kepada Tuhan Yesus.

So, in order for good things to happen, we need to pray to Lord Jesus.

因此，为了让所期待的美好事物发生，我们得祷告。

Tuhan memberkati Malaysia.

God bless Malaysia.

神祝福马来西亚。

Saya cinta akan Malaysia.

I love Malaysia.
我爱马来西亚。

♥

where there is love.

I don't know what to say right now, at this moment. Had been thinking of what to post on this matter. Well, now that I already have it, I shall post it before i lose my inspiration.

Where there is love, WE'LL BE THERE.

Yes.
Let us fill your life with joy and laughter, because you filled ours.
Togetherness, is all we're all after;
We'll be there to protect you, to help you hold on, to help you stay strong.
With an unselfish love that respects you;
Just call our names, and we'll be right there, by your side.

No.
We shan't find someone else new, because you're just who we need.
And you know that he won't be better to us.
But we know that you're still there for us, just like we're there for you.

Yes.
We know that you'll be there, you know that we'll be there.
We are convinced that you'll be there, as well as we'll be for you.
Just whenever you need us, like now,
Just call our names,
And we'll surely be there.
Encouraging you so that you know that we love you heaps,
Holding you so that you'll not fall,
Supporting you so that you know that we need you.

Definitely.
You and us must make a pact.
We must bring everything back right, as it should be.
be cause where there is love, WE'LL BE THERE.

We'll reach out our hand to you. As you reach out for ours.
We'll have faith in all you do, like you did that pushed us up into this realm of success.
Just call our names, and we'll be there.

So people, let's all unite.
Come into unity,
Hand in hand, heart to heart, eye to eye.
Let there be love so strong.
BECAUSE WHERE THERE IS LOVE, WE'LL BE THERE.
YES, RIGHT THERE.

happy endings.

Everyone loves happy endings. Who doesn't? If you don't, you have serious psychological/mental problems. Please refer to your local psychologist. Haha. Anyways, I just wanna say that I really miss those days when I have so much time until i get to take long, long naps on the couch like no one's business, have a few days without any tuition (including piano), not so stressed up. And especially this, not so emo. I just hope that there is gonna be happy ending, no, I should rephrase, there ARE gonna be happy endingS out of all these.

left out.

♥ not.

Some people can be so fake. They pretend that they love you, but actually they don't. They can post lots and lots of ♥ on your Facebook profile wall, but somehow, you know that that's insincere. Especially when those people that you love, those buddies that you think are the best people in the world. It hurts so much, you know? I know this post is a stupid move as well, but I need an outlet from exploding into bits and pieces. How stupid of me to throw them aside and move on. Stupid. But I love them too much to THROW them aside.

WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH ME??

kill me

everything.

Dear God, be my everything. Please. Please.

P/S - listen to Lifehouse's "Everything".

insanity.

Hello there, world. I'm back. Joyce is back. From whatever she's going through, she still manage to stay sane. Maybe somewhat a little insane, but at least she's still normal. Insanely normal. Lol. What am I talking about? Haha. Maybe that's because of whatever that's going on INSIDE.

Well, I don't know what am I thinking nowadays. Not literally don't know, but somehow I just don't know. You know that kind of feeling? Teenage confusion, some people may call that. Insanity, some people call that (I'm one of them, I guess). I, just dont know. Okay, now let's just stop with the "don't know" thingy. It's making everyone confused. At the very least, it's making ME confused. Lalala~

Alright. Maybe I AM insane, but that's just part of the teenage life, isn't it?

read today's date.

So, what should I blog about today? Hmm..
Oh yeah! Happy birthday Allan Ng a.k.a Jack Jack of The Incredibles! Have a great one dude! Haha...

And what else besides that? Hmm..

Okay. I shall talk about my day so far. I woke up at around 7.30 am, with my mother constantly saying, "Joyce, if you don't wake up now, you're gonna be late for church. And no one is gonna replace you for worship leading..." But I just nodded and gave some response and went back to sleep. Until my dad came up and pulled me out of bed. Yeah. Literally pulled me. Haha. So I went to the bathroom, bathed, brushed my teeth, quickly combed my hair and rushed out of the house. (It was 8.20 am already, and church is starting at 8.30 am. And the worship leader just finished rise and shine. Haha.) And did I mentioned that I'm having a terrible sore throat?

Despite the haste, WE, as in my whole family, arrived church on time. Haha. Thank God. We went up, settled down a lil', and my dad started chairing the service. (Yeah, he's today's chairperson. That's why he pulled me out of bed. LALALA~). Anyways, I started leading the worship, and it was good. Thank You Jesus for leading the worship with me. :)

Then after that, around 11.15 am, Jess Minn came and picked my up from church to HQ. (I changed at church.) We, as in Jess Minn, Mandy, Yue Jia and I, waited downstairs and chatted. Soon, Chee Yong came. Few minutes later, Quek came, not in his proper attire. -.-"

Lol. Anyways, at around 11.45 am, I suggested if we wanna ring the doorbell. I tried to press the button, but lo, my arm is too short. (Because I'm so short.). Anyways, Jess Minn rang it, and said, "I did not ring the bell ar, Joyce did! JOYCE DID!" And I was like "hahahahahh". Then the sesame was opened. And we found out that our voice projection is actually so awesomely good that what we crapped downstairs can actually be heard upstairs. *WOW...* We went up, did what we're supposed to do, then we came back to earth. I mean, stepping on real solid ground. Not the solid CONCRETE. LAME~~ Then, we called our respective parents to come pick us up. 5 to 10 minutes later, my parents came. I bid my darlings goodbye.

In the car, my whole family was dicussing about where to go for lunch. But in the end, we decided that McD would be our lunch today. So we went to Megamall, then we ate. Then I saw Suexian, whom i waved at for 3 times and only responded after her mom told her of my presence. XD After lunch, I went to Popular to get some pens, my parents some stuff, and my brother went grabbing thing and ran to my dad asking if he can have it or not. And by the way, I met Lee Yee while going down the escalator. She was coming up and she called out," JOYCE! JOYCE! JOYCE!" And finally, I realised that she was calling after me, I turned, saw her, waved with a big smile. The kind of smile that you have when you are shocked, those that show all your teeth.

After the brief, brief Megamall lunch trip, I went home. So sorry peeps, I ffk-ed you guys for not going to the session. Anyways, I came home, had a cooling bath, and onlined. Until now. With my earphones plugged into my ears, listening to songs in my phone. Updating my blog, occasionally chatting with some dude/dudette, stalking people on facebook, haha.

Oh. Here they are, my parents are finally back from their haircut. And they brought my early dinner back! Lot 66 chicken rice that is. It was good! Haha. When it comes to food, I just get so excited. I know not why. No wonder my size. Haha. Well, I'm going to theory class later. And I have yet to touch my homework. =X I'm doomed.

Well, that's my day so far. And, I still cant get you off my head. Oh my goodness.

dream came true.

Today seems to be like a dream. As in a sweet dream. But it ain't just a dream. It's a dream came true. A dream that we had been longing all these years, actually came true. All praise to God. To Jesus :)

We practiced for 8 days, lo and behold, by God's grace, we finally got ourselves the ticket to the nationals, which is like so freaking soon. (NEXT WEEK!! ohmygodness) Well, not that I'm complaining, but it's so soon...

Lalala~ anyways, I love you guys. All of you :)

Conductor: Jocelyn Wong
Pianist: Jermaine Wong
Soprano: Hanim, Suexian, Joyce, Roxanne, Umi, Desiree, Zoe, Jia Ann.
Alto: Jess Minn, Yie Tyn, Meng Yee, Shar Min.
Bass: Firdaus, Christopher, Jian Kit, Wy Jun, Yugesh.

We rock. Don't we, loves? :)

A little prayer.

O Father Lord,
Why do i feel so burdened?
So burned out, so stressed out?
So depressed?

O Father Lord,
I want to hide in You.
I wish to be under Your wings.
Protected from the arrows of my foes.

O Father Lord,
I'm fearfully and wonderfully made,
this I know.
But the human nature in me
has made me despise myself.

O Father Lord,
Your guidance, I need.
Your mercy, I plead.
Teach me, I pray.

O Father Lord,
Thank You,
for being there always.
Even at my loneliest moments,
In this lonesome journey called "Life",
You're always there.
Your limosine called "Grace and Mercy",
Is always within my reach.
But you gave me the choice,
whether to call upon you.

O Father Lord,
Here I am,
seeking Your glorious face,
to clean up this mess,
deep inside,
within the yonder of darkness,
there
in my heart, mind and soul.

O Father Lord,
Fill it with Your light
once again.
And never let it fade away
unknowingly.

Thank You Father.
Thank You Lord.
Thank You my Saviour.
Thank You my bestest of the bestest friend.
For listening to me.
Pouring out my heart.
Letting me dial an S.O.S. to You.

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.
I love you. Because You first loved me.

In Jesus' awesome name, I pray.
Amen.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ is an awesome shape! ♥♥

love y'all my buddies! :)
















and you.

i heart choir!

Yeah! SMK Alor Akar's choir is back! We're awesome :) Love y'all.

wipe!!

WIPE!! the piano. After a million years.

Yep. That's what I did just now. Is also something that my mother was telling me to do waaay before i actually did it. Haha.

Well, she has an awfully good reason behind it though. Haha. If you see my piano before I wiped it just now, and if I tell you that I just took my piano back from my old house, chances are, you might actually believe. LOL. This doesn't make sense at all. Haha.

Anyways, It's shiny, squeky clean now!! Yay!! :D

gladness

Wheee! Went for badminton just now. At semambu court. 6pm-8pm. Went with my Daniel The Cow Cheng, my dear sista Esther, mr. Quek, and also Melvin. It was really nice playing with all of you! Haha. Since I wasn't the hostess, I went late. Blah, no la. It was because I had chinese tuition at 伍老师's which ended at 5.45 pm, plus the after-work jam which caused my mom to pick me up at only around 6 plus. Though I was 45 minutes late, I still got to play. A lot. Haha.. Very glad that I got to sweat! Muahaha. I'm also very happy that my mom let me eat her awesome, awesome dinner! Chicken rice.. *ooh lala!* Haha. By the way, my GLEE mood is back! I'm starting to miss Finn, Rachel, PUCK!!!, Mercedes, Quinn, the gay guy (ohmygosh, i actually forgotten his name), Mr. Shuester, Sue Sylvester and many more.
THEY HAVE 19 NOMINATIONS! :D haha. Love them. Anyways, I'm happy. :) haha!

Gladly love y'all,
Joyce =)

a typical post of a fat girl

LOL. I seriously gotta lose some freakin' weight la. You know why? Because I'm fat. So, so, so fat. As if my body is made up of nothing else but fats. First, it's the "cute" double chin. Then, it's the big and flabby tummy. After that, it's the arm that wobbles when I wave. Followed by the huge, thick thighs and the large sized calves. Oh yeah, And the fat face. That makes everyone feel like pinching it, or rather, squeeze the fat out of it. They say that this, is cute, chubby, and not fat. For goodness sake la, I know the meaning behind that la. Lol



So, here I am, asking everyone, how can I lose weight. I have to because I'm gonna be onstage sometime soon, and I don't want to be the big blotch of fat occupying the whole space. -.-

So, I have had make a decision. From now on, I'm not gonna eat my lunch after school. And I'm just gonna eat a teeny weeny bit for dinner. And I'm gonna stop eating anything except liquid food a few days before I go onstage. Oh yeah, not forgetting the MUCH, MUCH sit-ups exercise.

Okay. Desicion made is FINAL. Yes! I'm gonna do it! Joyce Ang Sze Jie lose weight! I can make unsolidity into pure hard solidity. Yeah. That's the day, uh huh uh huh, I love it, uh huh uh huh!

justice?

I'm speechless. Ess-pee--ee-ee-cee-hedge-elle-ee-ess-ess. Ohmygosh. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? How would I know, right? You said that you want it fair. Long time ago, you said that we're gonna get it. You were so sure. What about now? What had you decided on? What had you done? You gave it away. Gave it to some people. You said that we had had enough already. You took pity on them. You said we should let it away. You said that things would be much fairer this way. Is it? IS IT? Nope. You want to be fair to them, on the other hand, are you playing it fair with us? Nope. You said that we shouldn't complain. we have enough already. What on earth are you talking about? Do they deserve it? Did they sacifice like we do? Did they do things the way we do it? Why you did that? I don't know. You're just crazy.

But you know what? We're gonna correct this wrong. We're gonna redo it. We have our good reasons. We're gonna win this.

Look who's gonna laugh in the end.




It seems that I'm not that speechless after all.

piano exam.

Finally. Yeah, finally, my long-awaited piano exam. Well, it wasn't as bad as I had expected, but still, it's not that good. So, I wanna thank everyone that had been walking with me through this exam, thank you people.

Lots of love,
Joyce

me lifey

Wokay. Here i am again. It has been a long, long time since i had updated my bloggie, I was kind of demotivated already, but somehow, after reading some friends' blogs, I think i should at least update a little. muahaha.. *Oops*

So, what am I gonna talk about? I wonder. My laptop (or rather, my modem) is slow at uploading pictures. That's the reason there isn't much IdontthinkIevenhave pictures in here. Lol. Anyways, the school reopened today, after two weeks of holidays. And I've got to admit, I MISS THE HOLIDAYS!! I miss hanging out with the dudes and dudettes, I miss St. John-ing, I miss playing badminton with my new-found friends through training, I miss the trainings, I miss the life that the holidays gave me, I even miss the competition. Ohmygosh, these flash backs really do make me cry. *sniffs sniffs*

But, life has return. SCHOOL life has return. This is just sad, sad, sad. We have to face the reality of homeworks, more homeworks, and worst of all, our mid-year exam results. Crappy, if you ask me. But at least, i had passed my addmaths! *beams* and please people, don't laugh at this.. It really do mean a lot to me. Blah, blah, blah. Anyways, my results aren't THAT bad, at least for now. I really, really, earnestly hope I kind do as well in my other subjects too, especially my physics, chemistry and BIOLOGY. Bio is a real killer subject mann.. But still, I know that God was, and still is with me. I'm sure He's gonna shower me with His AWESOME, AWESOME blessings! teehee~

Oops, it's getting late now, I gotta leave here before SOMEONE comes after me. If you get what I mean. Haha! So long dear bloggie, until I see thou again. *salutes* till then, I'll work hard, with prayers and God's blessings as supplements. God bless you!

With much love,
joycee :)

thanks :)

I thank you Jesus for being my Lord, my best friend, my Saviour, my brother, my EVERYTHING. Yeah. Jesus is my everything.

Thank you!! love you!!

shepherd

It'd been a very long time since I updated this blog. It's half-dead. xP Almost everyone i know have hectic schedules, and still, they have the time to update their respective blogs. Sometimes i wonder where they got all those time, I want to get some too... *pouts*

Well anyways, despite of all the tiredness, I'm very assured that God's walking along with me in this (exhausting) journey of my life. God is like our shepherd. Through thick and thin, he is with us. When we're down, He's with us. When we're feeling great, (often we forget that) He's with us too! He always wants the best for us. Let's look at the passage below :--

Psalms 23

1 The LORD is my shepherd;

I shall not want.

2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;

He leads me besides the still waters.

3 He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name's sake.

4 Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil;

For You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

My cup runs over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

All the days of my life;

And i will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

So, with Him around, there's nothing else that I desire. He always want the best for us, He wants it so badly that He let His Son suffer all the pain, all the shame, on that cross. And He knows that we're gonna do wrong stuff sometimes, He's gonna lead us, guide us, to be righteous. THOUGH I WALK THROUGH DANGER/DEATH/SADNESS/SIN/WHATEVER-YOU-CALL-HORRIBLE, I SHALL FEAR NO EVIL, BECAUSE HE IS WITH ME!!! He always bless us, even when we're in trouble, He blesses us till we OVERFLOW. Guaranteed, goodness and mercy will follow us (or in the real text, CHASE AFTER US!!) when we dwell in God's house (love) forever.

That's why I looooove Him so much. He provides, protects, loves, blesses, comforts, teaches, guides, walks with us, sacrifices, leads. He make everything complete. That's why despite all things, I still feel great! :)

We are not super people. We are vulnerable. That's why we are called sheep. Sheep have nothing to protect them but their shepherd. God is our shepherd and so we shall trust in Him. No matter what. He is almighty, omnipresent, all-knowing.

Thank You Lord for being my shepherd. Amen. :D

p/s this post is rather unorganised. I hope that you wouldn't mind me. hehe :)

God bless you :) xoxo

make me

make me melt,

make me happy,

make me cry,

make me feel useful.

You always do that to me. Love you so much.

I don't know if it's for real, but at least...

I LIKE YOU.

the L word

I wonder what word is that.

i magine the always-appear-strong joyce falling in that word and sometimes ss bout that.

darn.











i really really wana scream out *that* word.

FIRST LYPG OF YEAR 2010!!!!

HEY PEOPLE!!! LYPG IS BACK!!! *whoohoo~!* IT'S GONNA BE :-

ON THIS COMING SUNDAY (31/1/2010),
AT KUANTAN PRESBYTERIAN CENTER,
FROM 3PM - 4.30PM!!!

SO BLOCK YOUR DATES PEOPLE!! AND COME HERE AND MEET YOUR ALMIGHTY CREATOR GOD :D

GOD BLESS Y'ALL PEOPLE :)

Joyce Ang :))

Read this. It's REALLY awesome :)

A friend of mine recommended me to read this blog post. It's really nice, so I copy it over here so that i could share it with ALL of you guys :) God bless ya :)

I came across this interesting forwarded email that leads you in a round of debate and ends with the conclusion that in life, faith is so ever-important.
It’s rather lengthy but it is worth reading.

Disclaimer: The word of ‘God’ may be offensive or difficult to accept by some people. In this case, you may replace the word and the word ‘Jesus Christ’ with any other divine being or ascended master that you have faith in. Remember, God is only a label for that which is the Source of all Life, One with everything and Unconditionally loving.
= = =
‘Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.’ The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

‘You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?’

‘Yes sir,’ the student says.

‘So you believe in God?’

‘Absolutely.’

‘Is God good?’

‘Sure! God’s good.’

‘Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?’

‘Yes.’

‘Are you good or evil?’

‘The Bible says I’m evil.’

The professor grins knowingly. ‘Aha! The Bible!’ He considers for a moment.

‘Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?’

‘Yes ! sir, I would.’

‘So you’re good…!’

‘I wouldn’t say that.’

‘But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.’

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

‘He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?’

The student remains silent.

‘No, you can’t, can you?’ the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

‘Let’s start again, young fella Is God good?’

‘Er…yes,’ the student says.

‘Is Satan good?’

The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. ‘No.’

‘Then where does Satan come from?’

The student : ‘From…God…’

‘That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?’

‘Yes, sir.’

‘Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?’

‘Yes.’

‘So who created evil?’ The professor continued, ‘If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.’

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
‘Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?’

The student: ‘Yes.’

‘So who created them?’

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

‘Who created them?

There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

‘Tell me,’ he continues onto another student. ‘Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?’

The student’s voice is confident: ‘Yes, professor, I do.’

The old man stops pacing.

‘Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you.

'Have you ever seen Jesus?’

‘No sir. I’ve never seen Him’

‘Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?’

‘No, sir, I have not.’

‘Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?’

‘No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.’

‘Yet you still believe in him?’

‘Yes.’

‘According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?’

‘Nothing,’ the student replies. ‘I only have my faith.’

‘Yes, faith,’ the professor repeats. ‘And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.’

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.

‘Professor, is there such thing as heat?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies. ‘There’s heat.’

‘And is there such a thing as cold?’

‘Yes, son, there’s cold too.’

‘No sir, there isn’t.’

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

‘You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don’t have anything called ‘cold’. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.

'You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.’

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

‘What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies without hesitation.

‘What is night if it isn’t darkness?’

‘You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have Nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?’

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.

‘So what point are you making, young man?’

‘Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.’

The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time. ‘Flawed? Can you explain how?’

‘You are working on the premise of duality,’ the student explains. ‘You argue that there is life and then there’s death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something e can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.’

‘Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?’

‘If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do’

‘Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?’

The professor begins to shake his head, stillsmiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

‘Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but preacher?’

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the Commotion has subsided.

‘To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.’

The student looks around the room. ‘Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor’s brain?’

The class breaks out in laughter.

‘Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelled the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?’

Now the room is silent. The professor jus t stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. ‘I guess you’ll have to take them on faith.’

‘Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,’ the student continues. ‘Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?’

Now uncertain, the professor responds, ‘Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.’

To this the student replied, ‘Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.’

The professor sat down.