Don't pretend. Just be yourself. Because that's what He made you and there's a purpose for it.
Friday, April 8, 2011
when I'm back Home
I'd want to hear my Lord God say, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." I'd want my Daddy to cuddle my close to Him, in His arms, stroking my hair, saying, "Welcome home my baby girl. Go enjoy yourself inside." But right now, I don't know if He's saying to me right now, "I'm always here beside you, gently guiding you, quietly blessing you abundantly, pulling you off the edge of the cliff before you collapse. But whenever I try to talk to you, you'd just turn away and go listen to junk; whenever I wanna share with you something exciting, you choose to be enthusiastic over something else; whenever I try to feed you yummy stuff from my Kingdom, you'd indulge yourself in the gossips of this world; etc..." Lord, sometimes I wonder if I had let you down. I just don't know what to do so many times. I always tell people to let everything to You, but I can't do it. But when I can't take it anymore, I'd just throw and hurl everything in Your direction. Lord, why are you so patient with me? Lord! LORD!! LORD!!!! Jesus!! Lord! LOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRDDDDDDDD!!!!!! Everyone who calls on Jesus' name will be saved. I am saved. Jesus saves. Jesus. Jesus. THE Name. May Your face shines upon me. Lord Jesus is my Lord and Saviour. Lord Jesus. Jesus Christ.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
THE after-SPM plan.
Many people, especially aunties who wre trying to strike a conversation (which usually ends with one of us walking away after much awkwardness) with me, asks me, "What do you wanna do after SPM? Staying for form 6?" Then I'd always say that I'm thinking of taking Theatre, Music etc. But then I would add, "See what God has instore for me. That's gonna be the best.
I was thinking about this (and other stuff) during my addmaths tuition just now. Yeah, I wasn't concentrating. Haha. Anyways, I came out with many quotes, and this is one of them.
THEY SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW OUR DREAMS.
THEY SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW OUR HEARTS.
BUT JESUS SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW HIM.
SO THAT HE CAN PICK US UP WHEN WE FALL,
TELL US WHEN WE'RE WRONG,
COMFORT US WHEN WE FAIL.
BECAUSE HE HAS MADE EVERYTHING RIGHT FOR US.
RIGHT THERE
ON THE OLD RUGGED CROSS.
Well, it isn't really a quote after all because when I was typing the original one, inspiration came, and lo, here it is!
Jesus wants us to follow Him, so that He protect us left, right, centre, from behind, in front, and ALL AROUND!
He's an omnipresent, omnipowerful and omniknowing God.
What have we to fear and worry anymore?
My life is made awesome by Jesus on the old rugged cross.
*smiles blissfully*
I was thinking about this (and other stuff) during my addmaths tuition just now. Yeah, I wasn't concentrating. Haha. Anyways, I came out with many quotes, and this is one of them.
THEY SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW OUR DREAMS.
THEY SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW OUR HEARTS.
BUT JESUS SAY THAT WE SHOULD FOLLOW HIM.
SO THAT HE CAN PICK US UP WHEN WE FALL,
TELL US WHEN WE'RE WRONG,
COMFORT US WHEN WE FAIL.
BECAUSE HE HAS MADE EVERYTHING RIGHT FOR US.
RIGHT THERE
ON THE OLD RUGGED CROSS.
Well, it isn't really a quote after all because when I was typing the original one, inspiration came, and lo, here it is!
Jesus wants us to follow Him, so that He protect us left, right, centre, from behind, in front, and ALL AROUND!
He's an omnipresent, omnipowerful and omniknowing God.
What have we to fear and worry anymore?
My life is made awesome by Jesus on the old rugged cross.
*smiles blissfully*
What's the Limit?
We see with shock, the "cruelty" of the natural cathestrophe on mankind.
We see with pity, the "cruelty" of the animal abusers on animals.
But,
Can we see the "cruelty" we, a human being lash of another human being?
What is it that, do we call the limit to cease this "cruelty"?
Is it insanity? Or death?
The Lord and His Truth as set us free.
But what have we bound ourselves, or another human being to?
Man's traditions,
Man's cultures,
Man's wisdom,
Man's social acceptance,
Man's rules and regulations,
Fearof man,
Even man's own defined, or rather quoted, Bible verses.
Man... Man... Man...
When would you stop your "cruelty" on each other?
Didn't the Bible says: "The letter (legalism) kills, but the Spirit gives life."?
Do you really want to go on until you see insanity or death of th victim to call it "enough"?
What is the limit to the "cruelty" of mankind on another mankind?
When will man pause to think,
Which is more important:
Keeping the "good thing to do" or "keeping the life and sanity to live"?
P/S
Don't we have the trust on each other that
if one has the "life",
he/she would like,
would love,
would by their own inclination,
to keep the "good thing to do"?
We see with pity, the "cruelty" of the animal abusers on animals.
But,
Can we see the "cruelty" we, a human being lash of another human being?
What is it that, do we call the limit to cease this "cruelty"?
Is it insanity? Or death?
The Lord and His Truth as set us free.
But what have we bound ourselves, or another human being to?
Man's traditions,
Man's cultures,
Man's wisdom,
Man's social acceptance,
Man's rules and regulations,
Fearof man,
Even man's own defined, or rather quoted, Bible verses.
Man... Man... Man...
When would you stop your "cruelty" on each other?
Didn't the Bible says: "The letter (legalism) kills, but the Spirit gives life."?
Do you really want to go on until you see insanity or death of th victim to call it "enough"?
What is the limit to the "cruelty" of mankind on another mankind?
When will man pause to think,
Which is more important:
Keeping the "good thing to do" or "keeping the life and sanity to live"?
P/S
Don't we have the trust on each other that
if one has the "life",
he/she would like,
would love,
would by their own inclination,
to keep the "good thing to do"?
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Sudden emptiness.
kills. But then hor, I'm actually not that empty one lo. Just that I think that I'm empty only ma. RIGHT??
Sorry. Joyce is kindda psycho now.
BYE.
Sorry. Joyce is kindda psycho now.
BYE.
RETREAT!!
Yep. That's exactly what I need to do.
My Jesus want me to make effort to REST in my Jesus.
My Jesus will take care of everything.
My Jesus does not want me to worry.
My Jesus does not want to go all out and getting hurt in the end.
My Jesus keeps on telling me to not worry.
My Jesus wants me to always talk to Him.
My Jesus wants me to always remember of His death FOR ME on the old rugged cross.
My Jesus loves me.
My Jesus wants the best for me.
My Jesus is my everything.
But things just keep on distracting me, losing focus from Him.
My Jesus, my Saviour. Lord, there is none like You.
Yes, indeed. I'm such a wrenched person, but you still love me like I'm the only person that mattered to You. Thank You because Your grace is so great.
I WANT TO HIDE IN YOUR FOTRESS.
JESUS HELP ME.
My Jesus want me to make effort to REST in my Jesus.
My Jesus will take care of everything.
My Jesus does not want me to worry.
My Jesus does not want to go all out and getting hurt in the end.
My Jesus keeps on telling me to not worry.
My Jesus wants me to always talk to Him.
My Jesus wants me to always remember of His death FOR ME on the old rugged cross.
My Jesus loves me.
My Jesus wants the best for me.
My Jesus is my everything.
But things just keep on distracting me, losing focus from Him.
My Jesus, my Saviour. Lord, there is none like You.
Yes, indeed. I'm such a wrenched person, but you still love me like I'm the only person that mattered to You. Thank You because Your grace is so great.
I WANT TO HIDE IN YOUR FOTRESS.
JESUS HELP ME.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Terrified - Katharine McPhee ft. Zachary Levi (:
This is a beautiful beautiful song.
One of the lines that especially caught my attention is:-
"In a world full of wrong, you're the only thing that's right.."
You can definitely imagine what's my expression when I listen to this line. Haha
So, just click on the triangle-in-a-box icon, listen to it, and cry watching the video.
You might not cry, but i almost did.
P/S : Zachary Levi can actually sing! And that had just increased my teeny weeny celebrity crush for him into a big one.
P/P/S: The BIGGEST of all celebrity crush that I'm having so far is still Mark Salling, and Harry Shum Jr. (Sorry, I can't decide which one. Haha)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
sad sad, how?
when you feel sad sad, tell Papa who navere ever forsakes you.
when you wanna cry, cry to Him who always comforts you.
when you break up with someone, tell Him for He loves you much, much more than him/her.
He sayang you, like any father would to his children.
He sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang you.
My Jesus sayang me.
and I love you too.. (:
when you wanna cry, cry to Him who always comforts you.
when you break up with someone, tell Him for He loves you much, much more than him/her.
He sayang you, like any father would to his children.
He sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang sayang you.
My Jesus sayang me.
and I love you too.. (:
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
♥ me mama birthday (2010) ♥
Alala.... I'm feeling so esctatic right now! It's actually my Mom's birthday and I'm sooo happy. I wasn't even THIS happy on my birthday.. I'm just, SO HAPPY that it's her bithday today!
Okay, enough of all those crappy stuff, I'm gonna make a big shoutout here.
MOMMY!! I KNOW I DON'T ALLOW YOU TO READ MY BLOG UNLESS I LET YOU, SO YOU WON'T BE SEEING THIS WISH, BUT I JUST WANNA WISH YOU HAAAAAAAAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING MOMMY!! Wheeee~~ ♥
♥ Really. I love her sooo much. As some of my friends know, I sometimes have "cold war" with her, we sometimes have arguments, we even have tantrums over each other, but I clearly know that it's some kind of love language between us that no one can ever fathom.
♥ And you know what? Besides being my biological mother, she's my spiritual mama as well. :) She's really so strong you know? She's like praying all the time, ever so ceasingly, for me and my brother especially (until sometimes I also tak tahan). Haha.. But she understands.. That makes me love her more.. Haha.. (my love sounds so conditional.) xD
♥ She's also a perfect example of a woman to me. Not exactly ladylike, but she does what a woman ought to do. She loves he husband (that is my Dad, obviously) so much. Well, actually they are still DEEPLY in love with each other, pretty much still growing in love. Haha.. She's an awesome cook, which explains of my fatness. Hahah.. She's also a great shoulder to lean on. She's also a best HUMAN friend (my bestest friend is Jesus, just in case you don't know) that I could ever have. She listens, cries together, laugh together and plays together.
♥ She's mightily indescribable. Really. She loves simplicity. When she love one makan place, she hardly try anything else. Unless keadaan tidak membenarkan. Haha. She's really good at making powerpoints, video editting and stuff, but never good at social networking. She say that she's a typical introvert, but when she goes out, she talks to anyone as is they had been good friends since ages ago.
♥ She had been my mentor and buddy all these years. She teaches my anything, from cooking to spiritual things. She, although scolds me sometimes, loves me. That's the most inportant thing. She don't have to say that often, but everything she does shows her love and affection for us. She can sacrifice everything for a puny, tiny person (not physically though) like me.
IN CONCLUSION, I LOVE MY MAMA.
AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO.
I MAYBE A BAD, BAD GIRL SOMETIMES,
BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.
DEEP DOWN.
INSIDE.
♥
Lastly, I repeat again. Happy birthday. And I love you. :)
Okay, enough of all those crappy stuff, I'm gonna make a big shoutout here.
MOMMY!! I KNOW I DON'T ALLOW YOU TO READ MY BLOG UNLESS I LET YOU, SO YOU WON'T BE SEEING THIS WISH, BUT I JUST WANNA WISH YOU HAAAAAAAAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING MOMMY!! Wheeee~~ ♥
♥ Really. I love her sooo much. As some of my friends know, I sometimes have "cold war" with her, we sometimes have arguments, we even have tantrums over each other, but I clearly know that it's some kind of love language between us that no one can ever fathom.
♥ And you know what? Besides being my biological mother, she's my spiritual mama as well. :) She's really so strong you know? She's like praying all the time, ever so ceasingly, for me and my brother especially (until sometimes I also tak tahan). Haha.. But she understands.. That makes me love her more.. Haha.. (my love sounds so conditional.) xD
♥ She's also a perfect example of a woman to me. Not exactly ladylike, but she does what a woman ought to do. She loves he husband (that is my Dad, obviously) so much. Well, actually they are still DEEPLY in love with each other, pretty much still growing in love. Haha.. She's an awesome cook, which explains of my fatness. Hahah.. She's also a great shoulder to lean on. She's also a best HUMAN friend (my bestest friend is Jesus, just in case you don't know) that I could ever have. She listens, cries together, laugh together and plays together.
♥ She's mightily indescribable. Really. She loves simplicity. When she love one makan place, she hardly try anything else. Unless keadaan tidak membenarkan. Haha. She's really good at making powerpoints, video editting and stuff, but never good at social networking. She say that she's a typical introvert, but when she goes out, she talks to anyone as is they had been good friends since ages ago.
♥ She had been my mentor and buddy all these years. She teaches my anything, from cooking to spiritual things. She, although scolds me sometimes, loves me. That's the most inportant thing. She don't have to say that often, but everything she does shows her love and affection for us. She can sacrifice everything for a puny, tiny person (not physically though) like me.
IN CONCLUSION, I LOVE MY MAMA.
AND I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO.
I MAYBE A BAD, BAD GIRL SOMETIMES,
BUT I STILL LOVE YOU.
DEEP DOWN.
INSIDE.
♥
Lastly, I repeat again. Happy birthday. And I love you. :)
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
i'm a happy girl.
Name: Joyce Ang Sze Jie
Age: 16
Birthday: 09 October 1994
I have a God as a Father, a best friend, a counselor, a Saviour, a lover and EVERYTHING ELSE.
I have His love letters for me. For anytime of the day, of my life.
What else can I ask for?
Nothing.
Yes.
Nothing.
Thank You Jesus for Your love for me.
I AM INDEED A HAPPY GIRL!! :D
Age: 16
Birthday: 09 October 1994
I have a God as a Father, a best friend, a counselor, a Saviour, a lover and EVERYTHING ELSE.
I have His love letters for me. For anytime of the day, of my life.
What else can I ask for?
Nothing.
Yes.
Nothing.
Thank You Jesus for Your love for me.
I AM INDEED A HAPPY GIRL!! :D
you dare?
My Daddy is so BIG! So STRONG and so MIGHTY!
There's nothing that He cannot do! :D
That's the reason why I'm asking you now.
You dare to bully me? My Daddy (that is God, naturally) is ALWAYS there for me. ALL THE TIME! :D
Thank You Daddy.
You dare now?
*laughs*
There's nothing that He cannot do! :D
That's the reason why I'm asking you now.
You dare to bully me? My Daddy (that is God, naturally) is ALWAYS there for me. ALL THE TIME! :D
Thank You Daddy.
You dare now?
*laughs*
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
20102010
Just dropping by to post something here. Wanted to post on 101010 but lo, I missed the 100-year-chance. As a matter of fact, I did not even on the computer. -__-
Lame right?
And guess what?
It's 20th October 2010, which makes up 20102010! Whee~
Thanks for even reading this (if there is actually anyone reading).
And congratulations. Because you have just wasted precious time.
Lame right?
And guess what?
It's 20th October 2010, which makes up 20102010! Whee~
Thanks for even reading this (if there is actually anyone reading).
And congratulations. Because you have just wasted precious time.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
just like children.
Dear readers (i hope there are),
I'm so sorry for not updating this humble bloggie of mine. I am utterly upset that I am not able to blog on my birthday (that is 9th Oct) and the special 10.10.10. Those are important dates to mean and i can't blog. Anyways, I can't blog because I have things that are WAY more important than blogging to do, and there are many reasons behind them, which I would not like to list them down because it will cause waste of precious space.
Yours truly,
Joyce
Okay. I know the above (err.. what should I call it? err..) NOTE is kindda lame, and unmistakably CHILDISH, but that's the whole point of this post, becoming like a kid, relive childhood for sometime.
Well, what actually brought me to this topis is something that happened in school today, which was just simply fun, fun, FUN!! Seriously, though there were funny/awesome/great things that had happened throughout this year (Form 4) so far, but never had there been something that was so fun. Playfully fun. Kiddishly fun. Awesomely fun.
Enough with the intro, I shall just get into my story. Today started like ANY other day. Perhimpunan, then class (tries to keep quiet but failed badly at it), then (err... *laughs awkwardly) ponteng, then recess, as usual we makan-ed, chatted, jalan-jalan-ed, then had an inofficial gathering in front of the oh-so-small koperasi eating ice cream, BM period at the library, slept in between the book racks under the fan blowing right at me, went back, and there was the cool breeze. "Oh no," I thought, "how am I ever going to walk back in this weather? Oh God, please don't let it rain..." Then we started our way back to class. And this special day, we had (besides BM, of course) we had relief period all the way until the school ends, so we just chatted and laughed while the moniter tried to control our volumes. Haha. Before long, it started to rain. I randomly walked out to the balcony corridor (my classroom is on the first floor of the block, facing the field), looked at the rain and was asking if someone had brought a phone. Then, a crazy girl (Haha..) splashed some rain water on me. And after that everything started.
I started splashing her back, and she ran back into her classroom, which is next to mine, and some other dudes join in. And me, whose "hyper mode button" was accidentally turned on, filled my cupped hands with rain water and splash them on a dude's back. Which causes more "chaos". Soon enough, almost the whole upstairs of form 4 students, or specifically 16-year-olds were playing rain water like children. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention this. The guys actually took their bottles (minimum 500 ml, maximum 1.5 litre) and filled them with rain water to the brim, and poured/splashed on each other. We bodies were literally totally wet. Really. Our school uniforms are soaking with water. Dripping like crazy. Haha. And that was fun. Sheer FUN!! Haha.
This whole thing lasted for i'm-not-sure-how-long, maybe around 30 - 45 minutes, until the teacher next class came out to the corridor and we quickly went into classrooms. RANDOM classroom but the teacher's. Haha. It had been a long, long time since I had fun with them, and that was really good, just like when we were form 2. Happy days, I call them. Really.
Aren't playing like children happy? Don't we just enjoy ourselves when we stay pure hearted and not think so much about being ugly, not being so self-conscious? Well, I do. I am happy. I, in fact, feel younger. I feel not so stressed. I do not feel the suppressed.
Matthew 18:1-5 9 (New King James Version)
1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?"
2 Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them,
3 and said, "Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven."
4 "Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."
5 "Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me."
Well, when Jesus said that "become as little children", it doesn't mean that we are to act stupid like a kid, but rather as a kid trust his father. So we are the kid, and God be the Father.
John 1:12
But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name.
Isn't it wonderful? As long as we believe in Him, He gave us the right to become His children! What would be better than becoming God's beloved child? Pamped by Him, loved by Him, blessed by Him, and so many more! And the best thing is, He wants to give us the best of everything and give us to the fullest. Just like any daddy would do to his children. He provides them EVERYTHING. ALL. Not a thing less, even their so called "own money" is provided by the dad. If an earthly dad would give his children this much, how much more would our HEAVENLY CREATOR FATHER GOD give us? Immeasurable right? Totally.
So let's be like children, pure hearted. And did you ever realise that every children has a kind of special glow in their faces? That's what God wants to give us. You know why? I think la.. Because we look good with it. Hahaha..
Before ending this post, I give you these verses that I just found. Actually I wanna type it earlier one, but I cannot find. Haha.
Luke 18:16-17
16 But Jesus calle dthem to Him and said, "Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for such is the the kingdom of God.
17 "Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it."
How great is our God. Amen? :)
Monday, September 13, 2010
the wonders of Your love.
The Wonder of Your Love by Hillsongs. Nice song a friend recomemded. :)
For the video, click here >> The Wonder of Your Love
You inhabit the praises of Your people
You delight in the glory of Your Son
In the love of the Father we will worship
In the kingdom of God we find home
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
Together we will lift the name of Jesus
Together we'll sing of Your great love
We will join with the angels to praise You
May our voices be pleasing to You God
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
For the video, click here >> The Wonder of Your Love
You inhabit the praises of Your people
You delight in the glory of Your Son
In the love of the Father we will worship
In the kingdom of God we find home
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
Together we will lift the name of Jesus
Together we'll sing of Your great love
We will join with the angels to praise You
May our voices be pleasing to You God
The wonder of Your love
Will break the chains that bind us
The power of Your touch
Release us to worship
Sing out to God
Sing hallelujah
With all we are, we will worship You
Holy is Your name, holy is Your name oh God
do not worry.
Worrying has become a norm for everyone, no matter how young or how old you are.
Let me give examples of worrying for different age groups:-
Kids: I better keep my toy at a safe place, just in case so-and-so come and steal it.
Teenagers (students): Oh my goshh. Exam is so freaking near already. I'm so worried la... Later if the results come out bad, I'm so screwed.
Adults (single): STRESS STRESS STRESS!! Tomorrow's the audit and I'm not done with this report yet.. I'm so worried.
Adults (with children): I'm so worried for my children, I've done everything I can and their behaviour and everything is still so teruk.
Elderly: Why am I having pain here? Oh no.. Is this some kind sickness?
Don't we have a kind of sick feeling inside when we worry? When we worry, we just don't have a peace of mind, which can lead to so many other things like get angry really easily, headache, lose focus on things, et cetera. This is a fact.
BUT, the truth is...
we can choose not to be like that!
I did not say that. Jesus did. Let's take a look a passage in the Bible:
Matthew 6:25-34
Do not worry
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or stire away in barns, and yet you heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If this is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I always love this passage, it assures so much! Don't you think so? I love the part where it says that "not even SOLOMON in ALL HIS SPLENDOUR was dresses like one of these (referring to the lillies)". As we all know, Solomon is the richest person that had ever walked Earth's surface. So can you imagine how luxurious he dress and live? But "will He not much more clothe you", God clothes us more than Solomon did in all his spendour. Much much more. And did you notice how the sparrows are always eating, always pecking on the ground? It might be a kosong ground, but somehow they are still eating! Where did the food come from? Look at verse 26. God provide them food! And Jesus asked us, ARE WE NOT MUCH MORE VALUABLE THAN THEY? We worth much more than birds. C'mon people, we are valuable in His eyes. He provides us food, drink, clothes, everything that we need. OUR HEAVENLY FATHER KNOWS THAT WE NEED THEM! (v32) That's why Jesus told us to not worry. Not even think, not even ask. He will give us. He provides. He is our Jehovah Jireh, our Provider. How wonderful is His love for us.
Thank You, heavenly Father.
Thank You, Jesus.
For this assurance.
Let me give examples of worrying for different age groups:-
Kids: I better keep my toy at a safe place, just in case so-and-so come and steal it.
Teenagers (students): Oh my goshh. Exam is so freaking near already. I'm so worried la... Later if the results come out bad, I'm so screwed.
Adults (single): STRESS STRESS STRESS!! Tomorrow's the audit and I'm not done with this report yet.. I'm so worried.
Adults (with children): I'm so worried for my children, I've done everything I can and their behaviour and everything is still so teruk.
Elderly: Why am I having pain here? Oh no.. Is this some kind sickness?
Don't we have a kind of sick feeling inside when we worry? When we worry, we just don't have a peace of mind, which can lead to so many other things like get angry really easily, headache, lose focus on things, et cetera. This is a fact.
BUT, the truth is...
we can choose not to be like that!
I did not say that. Jesus did. Let's take a look a passage in the Bible:
Matthew 6:25-34
Do not worry
25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or stire away in barns, and yet you heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If this is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I always love this passage, it assures so much! Don't you think so? I love the part where it says that "not even SOLOMON in ALL HIS SPLENDOUR was dresses like one of these (referring to the lillies)". As we all know, Solomon is the richest person that had ever walked Earth's surface. So can you imagine how luxurious he dress and live? But "will He not much more clothe you", God clothes us more than Solomon did in all his spendour. Much much more. And did you notice how the sparrows are always eating, always pecking on the ground? It might be a kosong ground, but somehow they are still eating! Where did the food come from? Look at verse 26. God provide them food! And Jesus asked us, ARE WE NOT MUCH MORE VALUABLE THAN THEY? We worth much more than birds. C'mon people, we are valuable in His eyes. He provides us food, drink, clothes, everything that we need. OUR HEAVENLY FATHER KNOWS THAT WE NEED THEM! (v32) That's why Jesus told us to not worry. Not even think, not even ask. He will give us. He provides. He is our Jehovah Jireh, our Provider. How wonderful is His love for us.
Thank You, heavenly Father.
Thank You, Jesus.
For this assurance.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
okay. is this boredom?
I was planning to, you know, pack up this holiday with all sorts of fun, fuN, FUN activities like playing badminton till my arm, more specifically, my right arm dislocate, go yumcha with my darlings, or at least my friends (there ARE differences between "darlings" and "friends"), practice piano until my hands break apart, well, if not that serious, until my fingers fall off (it's still quite serious after all. Haha), go to the beach with, again, my darlings or my friends, or maybe go work to earn some of those ka-chings / big letter S with two poles vertically over it, revise my guitar and many, many more. But one thing that I don't wanna do is to sit down here in front of the thing that can be opened and closed like a laptop, that is, a laptop. I know this is lame, but it's kind of boring here. Sadly.
And I tell you what, I actually have lots of backlog homeworks. But too bad, I don't even want to think about them. Can you imagine spending the whole 2 weeks (well, not exactly) of holidays in homeworks? That is crazy. Only nerds do that. And I'm a geek. A COOL GEEK. Lol. What's up with self praising these days? Haha. Anyways, I'm still not gonna ignore Ms. Tan's homework, because if I don't do that, I am going to fail my physics and chemistry. Which is exactly what has happened to my Addmaths. Oh God, save my Addmaths!! Okay, and try to imagine doing those B.M. homeworks. It's not that I strongly dislike B.M., it's just that the teacher is, you know, unspeakable of. Let's skip this part.
And the whole reason of my failure in making my yumcha/badminton/hanging out dream a reality is :-
Number one, It's the holidays, and of course people travel to for instance, K.L.
Number two, It's the holidays, and adults are still working, hence we lack transport.
Number three, It the Raya holidays, and some people are at highway duty. Which contributes in the lack-of-people section.
Number four, It's the SPM trials right after the holidays, so even those who can drive are trying to study.
Number five, (Please refer to Number four) because these people are trying to study, I do not want to disturb them, so as to not causing them bad results.
Number six, Some adults (please excuse the pun) said that holidays are the time to catch up with what we students have fallen behind, in other words, is doing homeworks. *rolls eyes*
Number seven, Some people just don't want to go lepak-ing!!!
Conclusion, I am awfully sad. :(
And as I had said in the previous post, I am trying to media fast. And I actually had make the scope smaller to only fasting from Facebook. And as I am typing right now, I have my Facebook page open. OH NO. I NEED SOME HELP HERE!!
Let's stop with the emo-ness.
And let me tell you a good, good news.
I FINALLY OWN A DSLR CAMERA!!! Wheeeee~ And I can actually explore this camera during the holidays. Thank You Jesus for the camera. Thank you Daddy for the camera. I love both of you!! But too bad, I love Jesus more :) Haha.
So I'm just gonna stop here. And am I actually bored? It's a "yes" and a "no". It's just how I choose to fill up my holidays with. I don't want it to pass me by with me thinking, "What had I done?" but instead, I want it to be over, leaving me feeling afresh, renewed, and with me saying, "Thank You Jesus for this wonderfully awesome holiday. Thank You for filling it up to its brim. Thank You Jesus for all you had done for me. Thank You Jesus for your blessings. Thank You Jesus for Your love for me." :)
And I tell you what, I actually have lots of backlog homeworks. But too bad, I don't even want to think about them. Can you imagine spending the whole 2 weeks (well, not exactly) of holidays in homeworks? That is crazy. Only nerds do that. And I'm a geek. A COOL GEEK. Lol. What's up with self praising these days? Haha. Anyways, I'm still not gonna ignore Ms. Tan's homework, because if I don't do that, I am going to fail my physics and chemistry. Which is exactly what has happened to my Addmaths. Oh God, save my Addmaths!! Okay, and try to imagine doing those B.M. homeworks. It's not that I strongly dislike B.M., it's just that the teacher is, you know, unspeakable of. Let's skip this part.
And the whole reason of my failure in making my yumcha/badminton/hanging out dream a reality is :-
Number one, It's the holidays, and of course people travel to for instance, K.L.
Number two, It's the holidays, and adults are still working, hence we lack transport.
Number three, It the Raya holidays, and some people are at highway duty. Which contributes in the lack-of-people section.
Number four, It's the SPM trials right after the holidays, so even those who can drive are trying to study.
Number five, (Please refer to Number four) because these people are trying to study, I do not want to disturb them, so as to not causing them bad results.
Number six, Some adults (please excuse the pun) said that holidays are the time to catch up with what we students have fallen behind, in other words, is doing homeworks. *rolls eyes*
Number seven, Some people just don't want to go lepak-ing!!!
Conclusion, I am awfully sad. :(
And as I had said in the previous post, I am trying to media fast. And I actually had make the scope smaller to only fasting from Facebook. And as I am typing right now, I have my Facebook page open. OH NO. I NEED SOME HELP HERE!!
Let's stop with the emo-ness.
And let me tell you a good, good news.
I FINALLY OWN A DSLR CAMERA!!! Wheeeee~ And I can actually explore this camera during the holidays. Thank You Jesus for the camera. Thank you Daddy for the camera. I love both of you!! But too bad, I love Jesus more :) Haha.
So I'm just gonna stop here. And am I actually bored? It's a "yes" and a "no". It's just how I choose to fill up my holidays with. I don't want it to pass me by with me thinking, "What had I done?" but instead, I want it to be over, leaving me feeling afresh, renewed, and with me saying, "Thank You Jesus for this wonderfully awesome holiday. Thank You for filling it up to its brim. Thank You Jesus for all you had done for me. Thank You Jesus for your blessings. Thank You Jesus for Your love for me." :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
idk.
I don't know what is wrong with me. Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me. Neither do I know what has happened to me. I get angry easily. I get frustrated easily. I cry easily. I shout at people easily. I lose my temper easily.I act like a baby. I get disappointed easily. I disappoint people often. I get lethargic easily, in fact most of the time. I throw things against the wall and see them crash into the floor. I always shout into my pillow. I tear paper. I always crash thing. I skip classes. I curse. I do terrible things. I fight back. I rebel. I don't know why I do things like that.
Maybe she is right. I am a burden. I should get out of their perfect little lives. I should dig a hole and bury myself in it. I should shut up and shoot myself. I should DIE. They won't even shed a tear for me, I think. Since they loathe me so much.
SINCE WHEN HAVE I BECOME THIS TERRIBLE? THIS LOUSY? AM I EVEN A PERSON STILL? A HOMOSAPIEN? AM I?
I don't know why. I don't know when. I don't know. Really, I don't know. Truly, I don't know. I know not what am I doing. Father, forgive me and help me. Help me from this pit of lousiness. Really. If I am that lousy, take me away. Remove me. Delete me. Delete me from the recycle bin. And see me and anything to do with me no more. And be happy.
I don't know why am I even typing this post.
I don't know.
I DON'T KNOW.
Maybe she is right. I am a burden. I should get out of their perfect little lives. I should dig a hole and bury myself in it. I should shut up and shoot myself. I should DIE. They won't even shed a tear for me, I think. Since they loathe me so much.
SINCE WHEN HAVE I BECOME THIS TERRIBLE? THIS LOUSY? AM I EVEN A PERSON STILL? A HOMOSAPIEN? AM I?
I don't know why. I don't know when. I don't know. Really, I don't know. Truly, I don't know. I know not what am I doing. Father, forgive me and help me. Help me from this pit of lousiness. Really. If I am that lousy, take me away. Remove me. Delete me. Delete me from the recycle bin. And see me and anything to do with me no more. And be happy.
I don't know why am I even typing this post.
I don't know.
I DON'T KNOW.
Friday, September 3, 2010
it's the hols again!
Whee! Here comes the holidays again! teehee~ xD
And let me tell you a secret. I failed the first week of the media fast. Oh Lord, forgive me. For I know not what am I doing. Lol. I'm feeling really, really bad. As in ohmygosh-can't-I-do-it kind of bad, as well as ohmygosh-I-know-I-shouldn't kind of bad and also ohmygosh-I-am-so-sinful kind of bad. Actually I did something else as well, but I do not want to elaborate on it. Do not even ask me to. I feel dirty even thinking of it. *shudders*
Okay. So it's the holidays and I am trying to media fast. OHMYGOSH!! LORD, HAVE THY MERCY ON ME!!! It's hard to resist the computer (especially facebook) when it has already become a lifestyle, a habit. Thank God that He is with me throughout and thank God that tI have a blog ad thank God that I can write my feelings in it. As a conclusion, thank God for computers. Ohmygosh. I have to detach myself from computer before it consumes me. Literally consume me. Eat me up. From my brain. Tear me away from God. Crush my studies. Then my life. In the end, I'm gonna DIE. Yes, I do know that. Argh, but it's like drug. Once you have an overdose of it, you're hooked.
Okay. Let's put that topic aside. It's a depressing fact and doesn't match the happy occasion AT ALL. So, in order for me to forget the computer (there I go again, urgh. See my attachment to the computer?), I am going to occupy myself with any other things that are going to keep me away from the computer (see? SEE??). So, I'm planning to play badminton as much as possible (keep me away from home, as well as seeing the computer), practice lots and lots of piano, study addmaths, chemistry, biology, sejarah, finish theory homework, and the list goes on. You can't expect me to type out the entire list here right? Because if I do, it's gonna go KABOOM! and of course, TALK TO GOD EVERYDAY like i used to (sadly) . Oh yeah, and sing my heart out that is. Haha. :D
And you know what? I'm gonna try to prevent myself from gossiping. I'm also gonna be trying to not think so much about relationships/crushes/anything-to-do-with-stuff-like-that, because before I promised myself that I'm gonna truly fall deeply in love with God first before getting into a relationship. And just for you to know, I know I can't possibly make them come true all by myself, my own strength, but Phillipians 3:14 says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". So, it's gonna come true I'm sure. :) Thank you Jesus for you love for me.
That's my holiday resolution. I don't go for new yer resolutions.
I aim for short term goals that leads to long term goals.
Get what I mean?
To all my dear Muslim friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!
To my other friends, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
God bless all of you.
The above statement when paraphrased will be, may God be with you.
And always remember to smile!! And also JESUS!! :)
And let me tell you a secret. I failed the first week of the media fast. Oh Lord, forgive me. For I know not what am I doing. Lol. I'm feeling really, really bad. As in ohmygosh-can't-I-do-it kind of bad, as well as ohmygosh-I-know-I-shouldn't kind of bad and also ohmygosh-I-am-so-sinful kind of bad. Actually I did something else as well, but I do not want to elaborate on it. Do not even ask me to. I feel dirty even thinking of it. *shudders*
Okay. So it's the holidays and I am trying to media fast. OHMYGOSH!! LORD, HAVE THY MERCY ON ME!!! It's hard to resist the computer (especially facebook) when it has already become a lifestyle, a habit. Thank God that He is with me throughout and thank God that tI have a blog ad thank God that I can write my feelings in it. As a conclusion, thank God for computers. Ohmygosh. I have to detach myself from computer before it consumes me. Literally consume me. Eat me up. From my brain. Tear me away from God. Crush my studies. Then my life. In the end, I'm gonna DIE. Yes, I do know that. Argh, but it's like drug. Once you have an overdose of it, you're hooked.
LESSON FROM THE ABOVE PASSAGE: TURN TO GOD ANYTIME, FOR WHATEVER PURPOSE IT IS.
Okay. Let's put that topic aside. It's a depressing fact and doesn't match the happy occasion AT ALL. So, in order for me to forget the computer (there I go again, urgh. See my attachment to the computer?), I am going to occupy myself with any other things that are going to keep me away from the computer (see? SEE??). So, I'm planning to play badminton as much as possible (keep me away from home, as well as seeing the computer), practice lots and lots of piano, study addmaths, chemistry, biology, sejarah, finish theory homework, and the list goes on. You can't expect me to type out the entire list here right? Because if I do, it's gonna go KABOOM! and of course, TALK TO GOD EVERYDAY like i used to (sadly) . Oh yeah, and sing my heart out that is. Haha. :D
And you know what? I'm gonna try to prevent myself from gossiping. I'm also gonna be trying to not think so much about relationships/crushes/anything-to-do-with-stuff-like-that, because before I promised myself that I'm gonna truly fall deeply in love with God first before getting into a relationship. And just for you to know, I know I can't possibly make them come true all by myself, my own strength, but Phillipians 3:14 says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". So, it's gonna come true I'm sure. :) Thank you Jesus for you love for me.
That's my holiday resolution. I don't go for new yer resolutions.
I aim for short term goals that leads to long term goals.
Get what I mean?
To all my dear Muslim friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!
To my other friends, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
God bless all of you.
The above statement when paraphrased will be, may God be with you.
And always remember to smile!! And also JESUS!! :)
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